What he said...

WOW, didn't intend it to be so long in between posts!!

John and I go out every Thursday night on date night.  I knew this would be my best opportunity to really share my heart with him.  There would be no interruption, and he couldn't run away screaming and lock himself in another room ;0)!  I shared my heart that night with him at dinner and I'm pretty sure he thought I was crazy.  I'm sure he was thinking "this is just a phase, I'll listen knowing she'll get over it soon".  I assured him over and over that this feeling in my gut is not going to go away.  I asked him to pray about it, seriously think about what I was feeling.  He made a lot of comments such as, "you're crazy", and "I can't take on responsibility for another person".  There were lots of conversations about the fact that we intended to be done with children after the boys and now certainly after Jordyn.  Over the next months it seemed as if the same thing that happened to me was happening to him.  He couldn't get away from the subject!  He'd come home telling me about homeowners he had met that day and their adoption stories.  The most random parts of his day would include something to do with adoption.  It was crazy.  We talked about it often.  It was never a fight, never an argument, just very intentional about each of our feelings on the subject.  Our kids know our hearts on the subject and all pray over the matter.  We all talk very openly about it, and our feelings.
It's been nearly a year now since John and I had that conversation.  Jordyn asked him the other night at dinner if God had told him yes yet to adopting.  John answered her very honestly and said, "God hasn't laid that on my heart yet.  He's laid a lot of things on my heart lately but that is not one of them."  She was quite disappointed.  She hunched back into her seat with a pitiful look on her face and I looked at her and said, "Jordyn, he said YET baby!"
I truly believe that God has called us to support the fatherless.  I am waiting patiently for the day that God lays on my husbands heart what that looks like for our family.
If you're a believer please pray too that God would show you how he intends for you and your family to support the fatherless.  The bible tells us over and over again that He wants us to, I encourage you talk to Him and find out how.
Anyway, that's where we are now.  Praying for His will to be done, and waiting on His perfect timing.