Our Precious Girl! (continued)...

I guess I need to begin with some explanation, for those of you that don't know how this works.  (It's probably different depending on which avenue you take when adopting but this is how our particular agency works).  When we first sent in our application to start this process one of the papers in our packet was a "conditions list".  Basically, it's 3 pages of possible conditions that the child may have.  The idea is to comb through and research and make a list of the conditions that you feel equipped to handle.  Talk about HARD!!!  It took us nearly a week just to get through that list.  We cried over it, prayed over it, and cried over it more.  After many conversations with God, friends, our agency, and social worker we finally had our list.  (please know, this is not taken lightly!)

So, we decided to review her file.
Because we had called so late that night it was going to be the next morning before they could send us the info.  I didn't sleep much that night.  Tuesday morning I knew I was going to need something to do to keep me occupied.  Our agency is across the country, so it would be 11:00 my time before they even opened.  I decided to go get my nails done ;)!  When I got the email I went to John's work so we could read it together.
We read it and looked at pictures without much talking.  I think we were kind of numb.  It really seemed to good to be true.  After we finished I looked at John and asked, "what are your first thoughts?".  "If this is accurate, I don't know how we could say no!", he said.
My gut wrenched.  How could this be?!  I was terrified!  This was not what I had planned.  Isn't it funny how God works like that?!  I shouldn't be surprised to fall in love with His plan, not mine, but I am every time!
She was on what is called a "pre-release" list.  Basically the orphanages send over lists of children that are about to come available for adoption so that the agencies can begin searching for families.  That way when they are released they already have families waiting for them.
We had time to review her file, send it to doctors and specialists.  Our agency recommends that the file be sent to an International Adoption Clinic as they are trained in how to read translations, and understand what is being translated.  So, we attempted all of the above.
I forwarded her file to an adoption clinic in Tampa, and waited for a reply.  It was 2 days before they even got back with me so it would be the next week before the doctor would be able to review and call us with his report.
In the meantime, I tried to get reviews from neurologists, pediatricians, etc.  None of whom would give me the time of day.  I was shocked!  I totally assumed that I could at the very least email her file over and have them review, NOTHING!  Ok God, you've given us 1 outlet, we are trusting that he's the right one!
Those next days were agony.  I didn't sleep, I could think of nothing else.  I looked at her pictures constantly.  John was doing the same.  We were trying so hard not to fall in love with this precious child, but every day that went by, that we waited, not falling in love became harder and harder!